The Truth of Ruth is a place to share my story. A truth teller to the core. It is both a blessing and a curse. I vividly remember in 4th grade our teacher got up in front of the class demanding to know who had made fun of a little girl in the class. I was party to that along with a classroom full of kids, which I’m ashamed to admit. It took approximately 37 seconds of silence for me to fess up. I was the only one who fessed up and was given the opportunity to apologize privately to my classmate. Coming clean has always made me feel better.
It was about the time I turned 30 that I recognized the power of truth telling as it related to finding community and building friendships. I was struggling with infertility and knew nobody who shared my struggles. It being a topic not typically talked about, I had to tell others about my struggles to make a connection. The more truth I told, the less alone I found myself.
Motherhood brought on a whole new level of truth telling. Nobody knows nothing when it comes to motherhood. What I’ve learned is that muddling through it together is superior to doing it alone. Finding friends who want to cheer you on and support your choices (that may be different than theirs) is tough. My screening typically involves casually telling a horrible story about my parenting prowess (i.e. weakness) and waiting for a reaction. If in any way the person reacts with, “I can’t believe you just said that,” I move on.
As if motherhood isn’t hard enough, I got dealt a tough hand with my second child. Following a complicated delivery, late postpartum hemorrhage, emergency D&C, and blood transfusion, I was blessed with a serious case of postpartum depression. At the time it wasn’t a blessing at all, it was awful. With years between me and the PPD, I’ve come to realize it was life changing and one of the best things that happened to me.
When I’m not being a mom & wife, I work at my full-time corporate gig. I love my job and find it is a perfect combination of interpersonal skills and analytical abilities. That’s not to say it is all unicorns and rainbows. It is high stress with big risks and big rewards. Like most moms (working outside or inside the home) I question whether I’m making the right decision for my family and myself on a weekly basis.
My “hobbies” revolve around things I would do anyway. I love food, cooking, and entertaining (read drinking). I love to read, but usually find the book tipping over on my face in bed at the end of the day.
Welcome to my corner of the internet. I’m so glad to have you & hope you stay for a visit!